So the last few months I’ve been feeling burned out on
life. Not one single thing seemed to go
the way I wanted it to and it took more energy just to get up in the morning
and go to work than I had to expend. Thus
there was no writing anything. Every
creative outlet, in fact, was barred to me because I was so worn out. Which only wore me out more because I need to
express myself through paint, or words, or photography. I have to do something. I finally realized I needed a break from the
daily grind to recharge, to reenergize, to relearn what it is that makes me
tick. A break from every obligation of
life- no people, no work, no plans. Just
me, my computer (and thus my novel), and a bag full of art supplies. So I started Goggling, trying to find the
perfect solution. It turns out that when
one is looking for a quiet getaway, Google only knows about two kinds- a
spiritual retreat led by some sort of religious leader (and thus chock full of
obligations) or a romantic getaway for two.
I struggled to figure out what a single girl who just wanted to be left
alone was supposed to do. But I finally
found it. And it’s even within my
budget. I don’t leave until November,
but just knowing that I have a plan has helped the creative juices start
flowing again. I can feel plot lines
wrap around me and characters that had fallen silent are whispering in my ear again. I’m trying to refrain from writing to much
about my novel (because it’s still very fragile and criticism can only break it
at this point), but while I’m waiting to go on vacation to really dig back into
it, I’m back to writing here. Which is in
itself a good sign. I don’t promise any
kind of regularity or even quality, but I’m hoping that I’m finally through the
darkest part of my personal crazy.
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