Friday, April 29, 2011
Best friend? Kristin.
Cake or Pie? Ummm…why is this a question. Cake AND Pie. Duh.
Day of Choice? Thursday
Essential Item? My own pillow- I have to take it with me whenever I’m sleeping away from home, even at a nice hotel with big fluffy pillows with handy labels “soft” and “firm”
Favorite color? Blue. And green. And yellow. And purple.
Gummy bears or worms? Worms- I like to jiggle them and bite off their heads, but then since they’re worms, pretend they’re still alive and have conversations like “Ha! You almost got me, but I am awesome, and I LIVE!!” and then I bite off their other head and laugh. I am troubled.
Indulgence? Chocolate. And fresh fruit. I would pay a lot of money for fresh fruit, especially in like March when all I’ve seen for months in the produce department is apples and oranges and bananas. This is why I bought 10 kiwiw, 7 mangoes, a box of strawberries, and a pint of blueberries last week. And then ate them all in one day.
January or July? July, it’s my birthday and the BEST holiday EVER (Fourth of July, not by birthday)
Kids? No thanks. I have enough. (Actually I stole that answer from another blogger, but I’m leaving it, because while I have none of my own- I do have enough kids, and I don’t really want anymore.) (All of my kids are students. I have no actual kids.)
Life isn't complete.... until you’ve scratched some things off the ole bucket list (see mine on the page labeled “life list” because why make a list about what you want to do with life, about death).
Marriage Date? September 27, 2025.
Number of Brothers and Sisters? One brother. One sister-in-law whom I like better than the brother.
Oranges or Apples? I think I already established my fruit preferences.
Phobias? Running out of good quality literature.
Quote? We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness. (If you don’t know what that’s from- I quit.)
Reasons to Smile? Life is awesome, even when it’s not.
Season of Choice? Ms. Dash Table Blend. LOVE IT! Also, fresh basil or chives in the summer.
Tag Seven People? No.
Unknown Fact? I’m secretly shy. That isn’t so much of an unknown fact, as I keep trying to tell people, but no one believes me, so it’s an “unbelieved fact”.
Vegetable? As of this second- grilled zucchini with onions, salt and pepper.
Worst habits? Biting my nails, and an inability to stop thinking about food.
XRay or Ultrasound? Never had either actually. I had my very first ever antibiotic in the fall of 2009 (when I was 27), although I think I need some more right now (minor infection of the gum/tooth)
Your favorite food? I pretty much like everything actually. I especially like new foods, or exotic foods.
Zodiac sign? I used to be a cancer. I don’t know what I am since they changed them, nor do I care.
30 Days of Song- Day 16
A song I used to love, but now I hate- I used to love the song "15 Minutes of Shame" by Kristy Lee Cook, but now I'm bored by it. I think the problem is that it's like the first song on my mp3 player, so I hear it everytime I turn the thing on, plus it's the first song on my favorite mix CD so I hear it everytime I put that on, and I've just heard it to much lately. I imagine I'll like it again after I haven't heard it in awhile.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
30 Days of Song
Day 12. A song by a band you hate- yeah, sorry to punk out on this one, but I don't listen to music I don't like, so I literally don't know anything to put here.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Also, I hope you had a nice Easter. I did. I spent the morning in church (I love Easter service), the afternoon with my best friend's extended family (running joke on holidays at this point- "She should just change her name at this point, we see her often enough"). When I got home, it was to a second Easter dinner with my family, my mom's boyfriend and his daughter, and a few of the boyfriend's friends. Also, my mom asked me what I think of the boyfriend. This would make me think she' pretty serious about the guy, except I already knew that because she almost never comes home from his place.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Day 9. A song you can dance to- "Stop! In The Name of Love" by Diana Ross and the Supremes. This is on my "safe for work dance mix" and my kids love it. When I was in high school choir, the senior girls always sang a song together at our last concert of the year. The year I graduated, this was the song that we did, so now I know like an entier choreography for it. Of course it's nearly impossible to get a Youtube video of the real thing now that Glee! did it (I only know that because of all the Glee! videos I had to sort through to get this one), but I did get it for you.
Day 10. A song that makes you fall asleep- assuming this means something that relaxes me not something that bores me, Vivaldi’s Four Seasons, especially the Autumn Movement
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
30 Days of Song!
Day 7. Song that reminds you of a certain event- Driving to cemetery to bury my best friend and mentor, the song “Homesick” by MercyMe came on the radio. It was the first time I heard it, and every time I hear it I think of that friend and that funeral.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
The other thing I think about when I hear this song is my dad. That trip was just weeks before my dad died (both happened in March of 2008). It was my penultimate year of college, I was supposed to go on my first international trip that summer (I didn't go), and I was graduating the next year. Other than myself, the person my graduation was most important to, was my dad, so this song kind of reminds me of my dad too (especially because it's a father and daughter singing).
Monday, April 18, 2011
A friend of mine wrote about what s/he believes (I’m under orders to protect identity in this case, so be aware of odd grammar in the next few sentences!). This person wrote that s/he hates his/her believes because s/he has been teased for them, but what this person wrote made me think about what I believe. We don’t have much in common when it comes to believes, this other person and I, but I appreciated the chance to think through what I believe.
- I believe that our culture has become far too casual. I believe that a certain amount of polite formality would help us as a group. That’s not to say that we should be formal with our friends, but I don’t believe that I’m friends with someone just because I know that person’s name. It shouldn’t be weird when I call the parents at my work by their titles (Mr. Parent, Mrs. Parent…).
- I believe it takes years to form a solid friendship, and that friendship (like any relationship) requires work on the part of both parties.
- I believe that friendly love (philo) is just as important as the other kinds (romantic and passionate).
- I believe, assuming the existence of a God who created us, and who loves us, He wants us to use the abilities He gave us. That includes being able to form reasonable conclusions about the world around us, whether those conclusions draw us closer to Him or not. That’s why we have free will, to make decisions based on all the evidence we can gather.
- I don’t believe in using credit for stupid things. Credit should be earned and used for big things that the general public couldn’t afford all at once (college education, cars, houses, etc). I do believe that people should use credit reasonably- if you have to use credit to buy a car, you probably don’t need the fanciest car you can find, you need one that satisfies your NEEDS not your WANTS.
- I believe most Americans do not know the difference between a need and a want. I don’t go so far as to say the only things you need are food, shelter and water, but I do think there’s a big difference between needing a car to get to work to provide those things and “needing” a Hummer to travel the perfectly travelable roads found in most of the country so that you aren’t uncomfortable in any way.
- I believe in being kind to everyone. It doesn’t cost anything to be nice, and honestly it makes you feel better.
- I believe in education. It bothers me when people are willfully ignorant on important matters, especially the things that affect us all on a daily basis.
- I believe that we can and must all respect each other, whether we agree about our believes or not. I’m not saying we have to pretend to agree, I’m saying that as long as one person’s belief is not endangering another person, we need to be able to RESPECTFULLY disagree.
- I believe…some other stuff that I can’t think of right now, so I can’t write it down.
30 Days of Song!!
Day 5. Song that reminds you of someone- I don’t just love music, I love musicals. I’ve blogged before about what the song “For Good” means to me. When I saw this item on the list, this is the only song I could think about- it makes me think of both my good friends now (especially Kristin) and in the past (especially Marissa). I’m not going to post the video again here, but if you want to see it, you can follow the link!
Sunday, April 17, 2011
I made a good start today, by deciding to do something about it. Also by buying the stuff for good healthful salads for work lunches. Because if I have something yummy, I won’t be tempted by the Wendy’s five blocks away right? I also picked up some good fruit for snacks and side dishes, and a few potatoes (because if there are no carbs to go with my salads, I will fall to Wendy’s in less than three days) to bake and eat with that butter flavored yogurt I like. All that plus the yogurt I already eat for most snacks, some multi-grain cereal for breakfast, a shiny new water bottle to encourage water drinking, and some 100% juice for when water gets boring, and I spent a lot of money on this crazy scheme. So that “solves” the whole “eat healthier and reduce your caloric intake” part of weight lose.
The hard part for me is the “exercise and increase your caloric output” part. I have a hard time finding the motivation to workout. I don’t take workout classes because they’re expensive, and I get self conscious in the classroom with strangers. Sometimes I take the dog for walks, which I’m only motivated to do because I can listen to my mp3 player, but I want to do more. The dog is just excited to go for a walk, but he can’t make me walk longer or faster. I have some workout DVDs that I used to do sometimes, but I got bored alone in the basement jiggling my body along to whatever tiny little person was on my TV. Plus those people freak me out, because they’re tiny and can do scary things with their bodies that I can NOT do, and then I feel like an idiot for thinking I can, and then I run away from the TV in shame. But, I only run as far as my bed (which is where I my nightstand with the Oreos in it is), so that’s not very helpful.
So, what I need from you is twofold (after you laugh at me). I need some ideas for how to eat healthier, but cheaply and without getting bored. Boredom --> Wendy’s. I also need some thoughts on workouts that I’ll be motivated to do without having to stare at my jiggly bits in the mirror for 20 minutes first.
Day 3. A song that makes me happy- When I was in high school my boyfriend had a slot on a radio station. He and a friend were on from 3:00-4:30 every Friday afternoon. I had to go be at work as 4:00 and the other guy’s girlfriend didn’t get off until 3:45, so every week my boyfriend started the show playing a song for (I really only liked one song on their playlist, but I always listened to the whole first hour), and they ended the show with a song for the other guy’s girlfriend. The song they played for me was “All the Small Things” by Blink 182. That was over a decade ago, and to this day I smile every time I hear that song.
Day 4. A song that makes me sad- “I Loved Her First” by Heartland. I don’t know that I would have wanted to be “given away” but I wish that my dad could be there for my milestones. Not just a wedding, but my dad should have been there for my college graduation. I wish he could be there if I ever got married, or had children, or any number of things. Every time I hear this song, I want to give my dad a hug, and then I want to cry!
Friday, April 15, 2011
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Day 1. Favorite song- Wow! This might actually be the hardest question on what I’ve seen of the list so far. The other items are all more specific. My favorite song changes based on my mood, and what I’m doing, and how I want to feel. One of my favorites is “Sweet N Sassy” by I5. I like it because it’s the overall message is that women can be strong without needing a man, but that they can be strong WITH men too. My favorite line, about a minute and half in is “I will be there for him, just as strong as he will be there for me. When I give myself, then it has got to be an equal thing.” I don’t like it when women act weak around men, and I don’t like t when women act like they can only be strong by making men weak. We can both be strong. Men and women are different, and we each have different strengths, but we make each other better.
I get a lot of political email. Quite a bit of it is lobbyists for groups I support asking me to sign petitions. I almost always click the link and sign, but now instead of getting a “thanks for your support” page like I used to get, I get this notice
“Senator Mark Steven Kirk (R-Illinois) requires that you provide this additional information in order to communicate via email….
So, I dutifully, although aggravatedly, type in my phone number, expecting my “thanks for your support” page. And despite the additional effort I’ve put into contacting Sen. Kirk, I now read,
“Your message was not sent to the following decision makers:
Senator Mark Steven Kirk - Senator Kirk will not accept email messages unless they are sent using this web form.”
So now, I’ve taken the time to type in my phone number to contact him and failed to do so. How many people do you think now take the step of copying the information and going to his form to email him? I’m guessing not many. So in addition to doing that, I flood his office with phone calls. “Senator Kirk, I’m calling about [whatever my issue is]. As your constituent, I would urge you to [whatever I want him to do. Explain why]. I’m calling you because I was unable to simply sign the petition on this matter, because you require an additional form. Thank you for your time and service.” Man, that guy must HATE me and I feel like a jerk- but at least I know he’s heard what I think!
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Ten days ago I set in motion a chain of effects that resulted in an angry boss, when I over reacted to a piece of gossip that I should have ignored. Ten months ago I opened my heart, when I should have turned away. There are guards a woman should keep in place no matter how forlorn she is. Lines on should never cross, not even in one’s mind, in a moment of lonely weakness. In the words of the song I am listening to, “It’s gonna hurt bad before it gets better”. Ten years ago the world was at my feet. I could do anything, be anything, I wanted. I could have seized the world by the tail and been someone great. Instead, I sit here tonight in a college parking lot dreaming of what could have been. Tomorrow I will return to my room in my mom’s basement. This was not my plan.
Regrets, on discovers to late, don’t disappear just because one wishes them to. They follow me, like specters of the past, haunting me, yet not causing me to make better decisions.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Then we left the zoo at 3:30 so we could be back at my house in time to change and leave to see a play. Kristin and I LOVE the Reduced Shakespeare Company, which is a group of 3 guys who put on these “reduced” plays. They started with “The Complete William Shakespeare, Abridged” where they go through all of Shakespeare’s plays in just under 2 hours. The one we saw last night was “The Complete History of Sports, Abridged” every sport ever played in just under 2 hours. It was awesome. After the show I made fun of Kristin for spelling her name out when the guys were autographing our playbills, so the guy spelled mine wrong (Teena) to show me how it feels. Ha! That’s exactly what I wanted!!
Today we went English Country dancing again. That was also a ton of fun, but now I’m exhausted. My throat is on fire from talking and laughing and coughing all weekend (plus being out in the cool breeze yesterday), and I have to go back to work tomorrow. Thank goodness for next weekend, when I take a day off work to go stay in a hotel in Wisconsin for no good reason at all, except I want a break!